Oh, Woe!

On a wheeler

Yesterday morning was quite an ordeal in the Orthopaedics out-patient clinic. The discussion with Mr. R about the usage of NSAIDs which are contraindicated in a patient with past history of peptic ulcer but with presenting history of painful gouty arthritis came to a verge of critics involving ethical issues. "Patient comes to you for treatment and you're not doing anything. You send him back, the pain will not be relieved. Your job is to treat your patient. There are analgesics that have lesser GI side effects. Some people just want to cover their own asses by doing nothing." The closing sentence cracked an involuntary laughter among us as we watched him from propinquity, issuing a prescription for celebrax (generic name: celecoxib) with clear instructions to the patient. 'Take it only when there is pain.'

A couple of minutes later, I suffered a near syncope from the toilsome abdominal cramps I had on and off since morning. I had a similar attack some time back, but not the same aesthesis, cuz that was due hypoglycemia and this time, a vasovagal attack. My head was swirling in a high rotational motion and my pair of hands were numb. Cut the tale short, my friends were running to mini mart to get me some source of glucose for they thought I was hypoglycemic and one was trying to resuscitate me from fainting. I must have created such a flimsy scene before the crowd, a thoughtful lady, who would have been someone's mother, was rubbing my neck with that tender care while Chin was rubbing my tummy. I could hardly maintain my consciousness. The pain was so excruciating, all I asked for was pain relief. IV line would be awesome. The girls ran all around looking for the i-asked-for mefenamic acid and returned with 2 capsules of 250mg. We had forgotten all about celecoxib, that is. A medical assistant came and nearly brought me into an ambulance. They were all ready to wheel me to the A&E before I excused myself and claimed, 'I'm feeling better.' The whole drama subsided when I finally regained some amelioration. The next thing that struck my mind was, LOL! Omaegawd! That was funny! It was so embarrassing to make a scene in the OPD when everyone's eyes are on you and they were actually concerned. Everyone around was trying to make me feel better. Roar. The cramp and agony are minor criteria which fits in PMS. That was just the P state of M. I wasn't even having M. Sometimes, being female just doesn't cut it.

Now, the verdict concluded from Mr. R's averment - pain relief is necessary albeit the side effects that might arise from consumption, but who cares? It's the immediate pain management that matters, seriously. It's baffling, how I'm dependent on mefenamic acid every monthly when I'm a victim of gastric disease and reflux myself. I take these pills often even on empty stomach. Do remind me, I'm a bad role model. But yeah, you won't know painkillers are essentially needed to alleviate a patient's anguish. If not cure, at least palliation will make a do. It's not an absolute contraindication after all.

Chin and Muji's Birthdays

It is my kakanda kesayangan, Shazlin's 25th and adinda yang dikasihi, Mujahida's 23rd birthdays today. A very blessed birthday to you, darlings! Come to think of it, we've been sticking together as a group for almost 2 years already! Time flies indeed. I came to know these two lovely girls only after returning to Malacca and they are wonderful people.

So, we decided to have a malam muhibah to celebrate their birthdays and open fast together at Pak Putra for a Pakistani feast. Earlier that day, I had made plans with Chin to go for dinner together without telling her I had called the whole group to come along together with her makan-makan gang. Subi and Sharmie dated Muji on the other hand. But I guess everything turned out to be a no-surprise party. T___T Hope you guys enjoyed it though.

Kakanda Chin

Adinda Muji

 Birthday girls ((:

The 4 sistaz

Omg. I just realized Hassan acting 'cute' with a 'peace' sign. LOL

Forever caught with such gluttony look. T____T

Good thing I have Chin to do such act with me all the time. Hiakzz

Ok. Now F2's trademark : Lameness. By the way, did I tell you I came out with a new term? C7 that is. See, the dermatomal distribution for C7 nerve root is at the middle finger. So, instead of saying 'f*ck you', we're using 'C7 you' now. Ok lame. Whatever...

Written on the cake was HAPPY 'FUN' DAY CHIN & MUJI. Subi told me the Indians are superstitious when someone celebrates his/her birthday earlier. So YY came out with the idea of 'FUN', and god knows why.

With the girls.

 Cake lighting ceremony (is that what you call it?)

Blow baby blow.

Wish baby wish.

 Oppzz. Sorry Muji. It was partly my fault cuz I was the one who asked for extra piping cream from Secret Recipe. >.< I texted Subi and told her we got extra cream for Muji's face. >.<

After dinner, we had some pool side fun. Few of us returned to the sport's complex with the plan of throwing Muji into the pool. All of us were thrown eventually and had some real good fun. First was Muji who got pushed down by Steffi. Then Subi who was pushed by Siti and Sharmie? And there was a battle between me and Siti. She was pulling me and I was resisting effortlessly, like she's too tiny to move a big log, she fell into the pool with a slight push by Sharmie. Next was obviously me. T___T We were trying to get YY down as well, we ran and chased, caught his limbs but he jumped in to the water voluntarily. -___- Finally, Juen. Mr. Suhaimi was there to help us dump him in to the pool.

 Both of them splashed in together. It was really fun dipping and splashing after a filling dinner.

I was supporting Siti from drowning. The most humorous sentence she has ever said after falling into the pool was, 'You know what? I can't touch the ground!' We threw her at the deeper side apparently and boy, that made all of us ROFL. She had to tip-toe.

 Ok, I miss the pool. T___T

Cheerss! The eyeliner smudged my lower lid I became a zombie! Booh!

Thus, that was the party before we enter into final year. By hope or by crude, we'll make it through P2S1 this time and continue to be groupmates. All the best dearests!

Big Bang!!

I'm crazily obsessed!!! Obsessed with the news about Big Bang and their tour to Singapore for the Korean Pop Night Concert 2010 in October. Omfg. They are such heartthrobs! I was first introduced to this band by Chin Eu a couple of years back when he sent me one of their number-one single 거짓말 (pronounced as Geojitmal) which literally means 'Lies'. I had always perceived Big Bang to be a group of emotional-singers-in-disguise cuz most of my favorites have really blue/dejected/melancholy/gloomy/hurtful lyrics, but nice to hear with the electronic based music. I never liked hip hop and R&B music this much, until I heard them singing. They did it just perfect. Now, I have an impromptu urge to learn street dancing. My heart sank so often watching their music videos, just like watching a miserable Korean drama. Sigh, these Koreans. They never once make me stop loving them. Zeelle sent me Tae Yang's 'Wedding Dress' and 'Baby I'm Sorry', and that drove me nuts the whole week playing them repeatedly. So freaking addictive, I can die!!


I wanna go, I wanna go!!


Line-up includes SNSD, F.T Island, SHINee, INFINITE.


Anyways, here are rewards for you. (click to download)

Big Bang - 거짓말

태양 - Wedding dress 

Note for you, GAM - Taiwan tak jadi, Singapore pun jadi lah.. Korea, harap-harap jadi jugak. (((=

Time Disorientation?

Beeeeeebeepppppppp!!!!

Okae. I have the most annoying alarm and every time it beeps, I'll press the snooze button as many times as I can until I finally shoo myself off the bed reluctantly. Like a routine, the same thing happened today. The hindmost dream I could remember was an abso senseless dream, like doing some stitching and pricked my finger? I dreadfully coerced my sleepy eyes to open, like they'd been paralyzed by some muscle relaxant, I could hardly catch a glance at the time on my cellphone. My vision was blur. It read 6.45. The room was lowly lighted with a vague illumination from the sun. 'Alright. Still early. Half an hour more.' I thought to myself. The neurons in my brains labored strenuously, trying to recall today's schedule.

'Shit, Tuesday. Theory classes day. Arghh!! What do we have and what time is class? Gawd, I think I'd forgotten to check facebook last night. Did Veno leave a message? Argghhhh!!'

I pulled the comforter away and dragged my cold feet on the parquet flooring, headed to the switch and turned on the fluorescent light. Then to the laptop at the other corner of the room. I logged in to facebook. No new message. 'Huh? No new message? Weird, didn't Veno leave a message?' And I ended up surfing facebook for another five minutes before I realized it's 7.00. Time to get prepared for class, I conceived. Perhaps in time for a quick breakfast at the campus since my stomach growled a rumble. I couldn't recall what I had last night.

I gave a slight twist on the door knob and pulled the door open, toddle a step out when I nearly tripped to the ground. Fortunately, I managed to maintain my balance. 'Yiippee! It's going to rain!' The hall was so dimmed I could see only shadows and actually felt my surrounding to be windy. I was feeling all good with this weather, especially when it's going to rain. That would make my day. Then, a prompt wash-up and returned to my room. My room was so chilled by the aircond and I was shivering at that temperature. Just before I changed for class, I took a glimpse at the time on my laptop again to estimate how much time I was left with. And another careful look, damn! 7.10PM!!

Only to realize, I was still in Monday. Fml.

I get disorientated at times like these. But yeah, shit happens. It's time to call for bed and wake up for Tuesday.

Wuthering Heights

Will the love continue when my walk becomes a crawl?

That was an utmost random question that ran through my subconsciousness at four in the morning which aroused my sleep. I woke up with this big question mark stuck in my head. It was probably due to the titanic load of stress that hovered me over the past one week, I felt like I was breaking apart both physically and mentally. Studies and exams were the two main streams of emphasis I was caught up with. I could hardly take time off with the fear of failing that intruded over and over again. This time, I cannot afford to stumble, I cannot afford to fall. I simply cannot lose my steps and be mocked as a 'disgrace to my profession'. I'm feeling better now and endeavoring to revise. The passing of uncle David brought about some emotional strains in conjunction. It was more about the heartfelt for his family and my dearest friend who had lost a father. Also a reminiscence of my beloved gramps who had left us due to the same reason. I don't quite know what to say but truly, I was encouraged by Alicia's maturity in handling such situation. She is really sensible, strong and positive. We had a good talk that night and she's one friend who is there to constantly remind me about the grace of God and how He had uplifted and strengthen the family in times of sorrows and tears. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow them the rest of their days.

In the face of such revelations, I'm thankful for the God-sent-angels. My family and friends. During my most down times, they were there to embolden my walk. I was tired. In the attempt of protesting unnecessary worries that would have cast a cloud, I kept most of everything to myself yet I failed. Every time I behaved in such a manner, people who cared were in fact sensitive to my burdens. True friends are there for me every second of the day. I can't thank them more for they have never abandoned me. Words they spoke were so comforting and that made me whole regardless of who I am. They accepted me for my flaws and not my strengths, corroborated my strengths and not my flaws. These are people whom I really appreciate. Like how I received snippy comments on this blog by an anonymous reader who had no idea what was going on.

On the other hand, I've finally decided on things I need to do and want to proceed with right at this moment, where my focuses should be and the outcome to my decision. A million thanks to those who had heard my cries and led me to my senses. You know who you are. (: The answer to that big question mark - Everyone's got to crawl when you're up against a wall. I will still be loved even when the sky is falling, for I know that, He will not abandon me.

Dear ck(as how you acknowledge yourself), 

I care not who you are, but if you had dared yourself to post such uncivilized criticism about me, I had to think that you are so perfect to judge me. You don't know me personally, do you? Your attitude that is all squishy about someone else's life sends a chill down my spine. We are both cowards. Just like how you did not have the courage to reveal your identity, I hadn't had the courage to approve your comments. You are probably a foe masquerading as my friend because I do not have any memory in store about making rivalry. I hope you live up to the way you commented about me. At least to compensate for my inadequacy. But your intention to bring hurt in this manner made me think otherwise. Forget not, this is my avenue you are trespassing. Why should I let your trespasses leave a deadly scar? I pen down everything I find it to be significant and this blog serves as my virtual hard disk. I have not given you the permission, neither have I restricted you from visiting. I do not have the habit of monitoring the blog traffic. If you dislike me that much, please do not even try to be nosy about my ongoing. I do not see a point if you are just going to get more displeased with me. Pardon me but mind your own business. You are not the one who's going to be responsible for my life, so why do you even care. My profession is not something which you are on par to lay a word on if you think you are not a sinner your own. If I'm a disgrace to my profession, you are a disgrace to yourself, don't you think so? Thank you for the effort to remind me regarding who I am, I appreciate it, the one pointing finger at me and three back to yourself. Do note that, I know myself better than you do. Save part of the task to rebut my attitude with your negative comments for yourself. For it moulds you into better person. (: I seriously hope you bring such honor to your parents and all the best. (: Don't go around hurting people like this and making yourself sounding so perfect. Be an angel with more pride and dignity if you desire. I don't have the intention to be rude but you were never polite to me at first.

w

Bee's Birthday Surprise

@MRT station to Raffles Place

 The Fullerton Hotel

Mirror gazing in the elevator

The best part of our room

Bee's birthday cake from Canele

Spread of gifts for the birthday sweetie

 A compilation by Michele. The Seven Heaven.

We had red nails!! 

And I love the bed! (: too good to just fall asleep.

Happy Birthday dearest Bee! Lovesss!

 Bee and the sling we got her from Promod.

My loveliest sistas!

 First shot. I wanted to do the same but couldn't stop myself from laughing and collapsed behind the teddy.

 Second shot. Kissesss xoxo

Toilet craze

Chilling out @ a Japanese dessert shop.

Clarke Quay

 Walk in the light

 Sunny evening

Bee!!!

Dinner @ Thai Express

Tatwei and Chuanbee

@Timbre, Clarke Quay

I love this place, seriously. We ended up with some self-induced drunkenness and returned straight to the hotel. I lost consciousness for a moment and woke up with a good midnight talk with the girls and this was what we could never have it purchased.

 They are cute, no?

 I collapsed right after I climbed up the bed but was awaken by the girls to take this picture so that all of us could have the same profile picture.

 This happiness is what money-can't-buy. It comes only from FRIENDS.

 The Founder bak kut teh

Chan Wei Pyng

Its taste lingers still. SLLUURRPPZ!

 The signboard says it all! (;

Our 3 scoops. Superlicious.

Sweetest

Moi.

The 3 mosquitos.

Now, the musketeers.

This is how I spell L.O.V.E.

 Jealousy. Bern stole my lova!!!

Moo-lahhh!! voucher.

Bee and the aesthetic serviette, conserving mother nature.

The couple.

The end of the best birthday surprise of the year. (: I miss you girls already.