Baby Shannon

One of such joyous occasions this week was receiving baby Shannon's arrival, a transition from intrauterine to extrauterine life! My little niece is such an adorable and lovable baby who doesn't cry as much nor as loud as other babies under my care in the nursery and since the day she came, having her at home now makes the atmosphere much bubblier than before. I get to see her daily before leaving for work and after returning home. :D Guess I have so much to blog about her real soon! Oh, I just love her to bits!

Stealing a goodnight kiss before I go to sleep

Off-tag!

The happiest news I received this week was when my boss had allowed me to off tag earlier than I expected. It's supposed to due this coming Thursday but she was so kind to let me go on Saturday. Oh well, I was so worried initially that I would have to go on extra days since she extended a few people before me and boy was I exhausted already after one and half week. I could literally feel my concentration deteriorating as the days go by. Thank God, I'm joining the shift system tomorrow! 

Work has been otherwise good besides the lifeless life I'm living now. My bosses are nice people and I have yet to hear them raise their voices. Most of the time, I was lost in the sea of faces of so many babies, I'm having trouble recognizing them. I can no longer empathize their cries and be perturbed every time I take an attempt to gain I.V. access cuz at the end of the day, I just wanna complete my work.

10.45pm - One of those rare breaks we got to sit down while waiting for big boss to come for night round and we waited till 11.15pm. She was surprised to see me still around at that hour and told me to go back! I guess that was why she let me go off-tag so soon :D Pretty nice lady huh! :D

I got a day off today! Had a pretty good sleep last night after some post tagging beer with Erin, Michele and Juliet and I was in a drowsy state for the whole day! Time to go to sleep! Had just returned from a karaoke session with Michele and Ah Ben. :D Nitez!

Make me rainbow, please.

It has to be a bliss when I get a day off now. Work has started and I've been posted to the pediatric department. When my big boss asked if I would take up her challenge to start off with SCN, I swiftly answered 'yes' without even thinking it's gonna be tough. So yeah, being a first poster there ain't easy on the first day when all I knew was nothing! Neonates are so tiny and fragile I didn't even know how to carry them, what more withdrawing blood and doing other invasive procedures? Tagging has so far been really tiring. I leave home every morning at 6.30am and return home at 11pm or later.

I'm really lost since work started. I wake up everyday with this routine cycle of going to work and  coming home, only to realize myself falling asleep right after dinner. I do not have an aim, I do not have anything to look forward to. It's not about the workload I have to handle, neither is it about the stress of getting scolded by bosses(they've been pretty good to me till now). For the first time I'm feeling so alone at a place I'm quite foreign to especially when I have no one close around me. Seniors there are nice and kind and they were the ones who'd taught and helped me a lot, getting me food when we were too busy to grab a bite outside. I'm still trying to fit in to their norms.

I used to wonder how bad can working life be when going through the final exam was already the worst for me at that time. Guess I can empathize the situation of those who are always complaining to me, now that I'm in their shoes. This is not the kind of life I thought it ought to be. This time, I couldn't agree more with Dx that home is where I can find the best comfort when I'm not ready or simply do not have time to handle everything on my own. True enough, I'm having a proper solace every day I'm home from work. All I need is time to settle down while deciding for myself what's best for me.

I'm a Government Servant!

I went through the greatest turmoil deciding for myself where I should be working. A couple of months back, I was stuck at a juncture where I was unsure of the kind of life I should be living. To either a place where I'd always wanted to be at or to the other one where I could possibly salvage something precious I'd lost. The former one became my first choice of selection while the latter one became my second choice.

Time flies and I'm into another chapter of my life, a chapter I regard it to have happened unexpectedly tough. As much as I'd always wanted to be in Penang for housemanship, I'm returning to Batu Pahat instead. Oh well, things do not always turn out the way we want it, do they? I was at a loss for words when I saw Hospital Batu Pahat printed on the paper, not to mention the disappointment that pierced right through my intuitive understanding I had all along that I'd go up north. I wanted desperately to be in that town where I had left my heart.

I submitted an appeal letter the following day with the strongest excuse and guess what was the irony?? I withdrew the letter just before it was faxed to SPA!! It was as though I decided on something that totally contradicts my wishes. Instead of worrying my appeal is rejected, I was worrying if it will be approved. This doubt kept intruding my mind - 'Am I ready to face challenges on my own when I have no one whom I'm accountable to there?' So yeah, after much consideration, I decided to return home.

This time, I'm taking a chance to a place I had never imagined myself to be in. I'm a taking a leap of faith cuz someone once told me this, 'God may not give you the best, but He will give you a place where you can grow most in Him'. With this, I'm gonna place my trust in Him again. It's time for me to let go off the past and get over those waves that tossed me in the ocean. This is a new start!

Huixin and new friend, Melinder from AIMST. Thursday is batik day in the government sector.

Groupmates Naveen and Muhsin from AIMST.

Elaine, Yanlian, Huixin

Tornglei, Bing, Foong and Yusrizal (From Moscow State Med. Uni,)

Jimi. We come from the same hometown, attended the same kindergarten, studied in the same batch, visited the same church, lived in the same compound, applied to the same hospital (HSAH) as one of our choices and now, we'll be working in the same hospital (HBP) as colleagues.

Hello girls, I'm so gonna miss all of you!!

Soohong came for her 'pseudo induction'..

Juen. Goodbye groupmate of 2.5 years!

Gayathiri and Melinder from AIMST

Second shot! d:

The end of induction and I'm officially a government servant! >.<