Thankful

The final four months of housemanship before getting my official license to practice. It's gonna be a good four-month posting cuz I'm in the department of anaesthesia! Very little workload and basically a stress free department. I've always thought about doing this speciality since I was a medical student. It is still bothering me now, what do I want for my future. No joke, I'm afraid I'll regret my own decision in the near future when I'm really into it. Sigh and this is why I have never ending worries. They come one after another. I have no clue if I should be at where the bf is, or be ambitious to stay back in Batu Pahat. But one thing I'm certain of, I dislike long distance relationship. Never good at maintaining and I feel insecure every now and then. Sometimes I feel so disheartened when the bf is not around and worsen when it leads to unintentional emotional strains between us. I know he's trying very hard to please me all the time. The patience he has towards me makes me feel sorry for being petty and demanding. )): But well, thank God for sending him into my life. It's been a great 18 months after all.