The start of being a MO

It's been two weeks into the life of a medical officer. I'm still floating in the medical department while awaiting for my transfer letter to come. So many had asked, "How does it feel to become a MO?". Well, decision making is hard and bearing the responsibility for every decision you make is even harder. I feel the tension and fear of harming my patients. When I was a house officer, it's relieving to hear the word 'DNR'. Now, I'm in a dilemma whether DNR should be taken even for a very poor candidate for active resuscitation. No doubt, I've learned a lot these two weeks. A million thanks to those helpful colleagues and bosses in the department and not forgetting my all time wonderful boyfie who's been there for me 24/7. It becomes easy that when I can't handle a case, I'll just give him a call and he'll plan out the management for me. 

The only stress I'm facing now is the oncoming 7 oncalls within 3 weeks of time. Sigh, I feel so upset whenever I think about it and it's starting tomorrow! Basically EOD and boy, I have no idea how I'm gonna survive this. Hopefully all goes well. My previous oncalls had been really tiring. I can't wait for this to end, seriously. 

Bestie's marriage proposal

Am home early today on a working day! Awesomeness! Thought I shall post some pictures here to keep this blog alive and updated. So early this month, I managed to meet up with my besties for a brief hang out. We had so much of fun, partly excited over Soo Hong's marriage proposal that night and that was the first time all three of us had our other half along. In fact a night we'd always been looking forward to. Our dinner was at Spasso Milano, Pavilion. Food there is good. Then our plan to convince Soo that we're gonna chill at Skybar (where Jk planned to pop 'the question') went on well. It was cool. So yeah, a lil bit of update like this is going to make me remember. 

Waterfall and bubble bath

Just returned from a refreshing holiday over the weekend. It was fun, really. We didn't do much. Just waterfall and the hotel. Even that was already enough - a much needed non hectic holiday where we traveled in our own sweet slow pace. Of all the memories collected from this town last year, and we recollected more this year. Awww and I'm already missing it now. Such intense emotion etched in my memory. Thanks hun, for such an amazing holiday

Be happy like Elmo!

Come rain or shine, this has gotta be one of the best family trips with the elderly. Sesame street was just as awesome too! :D look how adorable they are! 

Flashbacks

Taking some time to clean up the datas from my dear old faithful laptop when I started browsing through some really old chat history with some friends via Adium. As a result, it got me all nostalgic with flashbacks creeping in from year 2010. A phase of life where I met new people who had impacted my life in a way or other. My social circle has been pretty much confined to only a few close friends and my family since I was back in BP. I don't know if this is a healthy practice, but yeah it gives me the urge to meet those people who'd contributed at least some thing to my life just for a word of appreciation. (: I had only managed to delete half of the conversations saved throughout the year. There were some which I'd decided to keep cuz they're worth to be bookmarked and to be read again. 

Black and white photographs

Downloaded the blogging app for iPhone and it's just a click away to be connected to the blogosphere now. That's pretty convenient I guess. Anyway, just to share a few pictures which I find them really awesome during my Hong Kong trip.

A complimentary photo shoot at the Olympian City when spent more than HKD400 with credit card in two different stores. We took many other peekchas at their 'I ❤ PARIS' themed layout.

Got these two nostalgic black and white photographs taken at Mongkok. And how we ended up taking them was a long story. Basically I spotted this photographer capturing these pictures on the street during our second night in HK and when I looked through some of his samples, I fell in love with them immediately. I was telling bubz how nice if we can have one taken too. Since we were all too tired, his reply was just 'ork!'. The following day at Disneyland, I teared when I couldn't even get a shot with the Disney characters. All thanks to the long queue and the crews for closing the park so early. I was literally begging the lady to let me in, just for a picture but she wouldn't allow. I walked away disappointedly and somehow I was feeling incomplete when I wasactually there in Disneyland yet there isn't any picture with Mickey and Minnie! A childhood dream I've always wanted to do. Lol bubz was trying so hard to cheer me up and the following day, he brought me to Mongkok for that two pictures instead. Boyfie is sweet as such when he doesn't bully me *feeling loved* Anyway, loving how good these black and white photographs turned out though we're not the best looking people on earth. 

No update

Wanted so much to blog but I'm literally clueless about what to post. Having no update is actually an update, perhaps? Will come back soon when I get the vague idea. (: just to say that I'm enjoying my current department and life. It's good! 

Thankful

The final four months of housemanship before getting my official license to practice. It's gonna be a good four-month posting cuz I'm in the department of anaesthesia! Very little workload and basically a stress free department. I've always thought about doing this speciality since I was a medical student. It is still bothering me now, what do I want for my future. No joke, I'm afraid I'll regret my own decision in the near future when I'm really into it. Sigh and this is why I have never ending worries. They come one after another. I have no clue if I should be at where the bf is, or be ambitious to stay back in Batu Pahat. But one thing I'm certain of, I dislike long distance relationship. Never good at maintaining and I feel insecure every now and then. Sometimes I feel so disheartened when the bf is not around and worsen when it leads to unintentional emotional strains between us. I know he's trying very hard to please me all the time. The patience he has towards me makes me feel sorry for being petty and demanding. )): But well, thank God for sending him into my life. It's been a great 18 months after all.

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Wonder if it's even worth doing so much at times. The insecurity is making me sick. Really sick.

Zenxin Organic Farm

6th April 2013

Some quality time spent with Gary's family over the short weekend break. We decided to go to the farm for some light activities like cycling and feeding the animals. Peddling the bike was tiring, yet we had so much fun posing for pictures.

Gary, Uncle Douglas, Jie Ching, Aunt Yvonne, Jayden, Valerie and Chris

The kids are sooo cuteeee!!

Jie Ching aka Ching Ching

The field. 

I suppose this is the nicest view in the farm

With the kids

Aunt Yvonne kept asking us to do this. Turned out to be a pretty good shot.

Love this shot extremely!

Ho Chi Minh

Before I forget all the minute details or even completely about the events that took place last year, I should get them posted here to keep my memory in check. There was Ho Chi Minh in early November (2nd - 6th) last year with Gary. That was during my end of posting leave in O&G. Talk about the trip, it was a pretty last minute decision, like a month before? Or even lesser.

We put up at the Koniko Backpackers Hostel. Saigon was where we experienced their (the Vietnamese) poverty and hardships rather than it being a relaxing or grandeur holiday. Also a place we had to bargain for at least 80% off the price offered for things they sell. That was pretty fun actually. For example, buying a pair of shorts for Rm20 instead Rm100. We did that for almost everything we bought, even for the a coconut. Overall, the thing I enjoyed most is probably the food and the priceless homestay experience at Mekong. But should I have more money for traveling purposes, I'll probably not return there. Once is enough I guess though I certainly crave for Vietnamese food every now and then, especially their beef noodles and barbeque pork! I don't have many pictures with me cuz most of them were taken with Gary's phone and I have yet to transfer them. So yeah, just these few.

Gary's fav Bahn Mi (French bread). The first thing we tried before heading to a proper dinner.

My fav Pho Bo (Beef noodle). Our second round of dinner on our way back.

Too lazy to walk to Ben Thanh market the following morning, we took the bike instead!

And this is Ben Thanh Market. The only thing we got from this place was the lotus seed. 

Out in the heat! 

The monument just across Ben Thanh

Notre Dame Cathedral

Hello bikz!

My fav shot! :D

At Reunification Palace

To make the tour complete, we visited one of the historical sites. As usual, the moment I entered, I couldn't wait to be out. That happens every. single. time I'm in a musueam, If you're in here, better get a guide to explain the sections inside. Or you'll comprehend nothing like us.

Dinner time! Obliged to try at the French restaurant just along the street where we lived cuz the waiter kept waiving at us, asking us to get in. 

And we call this 'chap fan' in our country. :D

Hello ahjumma! Bought one of these 'non la' (leaf heat) that served me well in Mekong.

At a rest stop on our way to Mekong.

One of the stops during our Mekong Delta tour for local fruits. Urh, we get these in Malaysia too.

Row row row your boat, gently down the stream. Merrily merrily merrily merrily, life is but a dream

Queen bee honey tasting. We're the only Malaysians in the group. 

Homestay! With these awesome people from German!

Our host making us dinner

After breakfast. I can't remember their names.

Hello from us!

At a fruit plantation with my hat. 

Last meal in Saigon city before our departure