Cuppa cuppucino?

My guess that most of you do not have any idea about 'I am allergy to coffee'. Yes, it's COFFEE! I had bouts of severe gastric pain every time I take coffee. Just a few sips of coffee, I get all hyped up. Insomnia, palpitation, euphoria. Pun not intended. If you have noticed by now, I don't order coffee when I go out for drinks. Not even at the famous chain-outlets like Starbucks nor Coffee Bean.

Anyways, I had a pretty carefree day. Shamefully admit that I skipped morning class today! Woke up at 10am and was lazing around till 2pm, I went for ENT lecture for an hour, got home and continued to be a slacker. Then I remembered the packet of instant cuppucino given by my friend was still somewhere within my 'food-box'. So, I decided to make my evening feel really good. Got the water boiled and tadaa, the aroma made me drooled instantly when I started stirring my drink. One of the feel good times I had. Sipping a cup of good coffee while tuning to the voice of Ne-yo, Priscilla Ahn, Colbie Caillat, Marie Digby and KT Tunstall and reading for my viva tomorrow was true enough, very relaxing. This scenario would have been better if I had replaced the textbook with a novel! LOL.

I'm still waiting for the post-coffee-effect to come. :p

So far so good.

Had a great weekend at home. It's the home I'm proud to be in, the home that groomed me to be whom I am today. Thanks to MMMC's annual convocation, Friday was a half day for us. Caught an early bus and I left for home earlier than usual. Just how rarely I got this kind of opportunity. Anyways, this weekend was somehow rejuvenating since I had enough rest at home.

Checklists.

1. A good talk and reunion with my parents.
2. Shopping with mom and dad, grandaunt and Naomi.
3. Bought a pair of sandals I adored.
4. Spent a night with grandma as she was sick.
5. Accompanied my aunts for shopping and hunting a cellphone for grandma.
6. Watched a crappy movie with bro at home. So called the 'Nightmare Detective'.
7. Attended church, met up with Aik Munn and Mei Cher and had a real good catch-up.
8. Followed Khai Hong back to Melaka while we shared lots of personal stuff all through the journey and dining at KFC.

Wow wow. How I loved being pampered like a princess the moment I reached home, unlike the feeling of being independent whenever I'm back here in college. *sulks*

I happened to read through a note written by a friend on facebook a while ago, entitled 'Luahan'. It somehow brought me to my senses indirectly, but not being in the same position as the author of the note. At times like these, I realized how much I cling on to God only in times of troubles and fears. The guilt for not being a true daughter of God while everyone has been constantly reminding you of God's faithfulness especially from my family and a couple of friends. I have to admit I lose momentum very easily and succumb to temptations even faster than I realize I should not. It's hard, really hard to keep up a proper pace.

Sigh, I really don't know what I am ranting now. Just feel like ranting and ranting and ranting non stop.

p/s:
MeiCher babe, thanks for saving my 'life' this afternoon. You know what I meant. Really glad you stopped me in time and dragged me out of my doom. Thanks for always being there for me when I needed someone. I LOVE YOU, LOVE YOU, LOVE YOU!!! *big hug*

AikMunn, it's nice to catch-up with you again after some time. Hope to see you again before you return to AIMST. I know you'll catch me to tell my story next time after hearing so much about yours. All the best dude.

KhaiHong, thanks too for the talk knowing my feelings well before I said a thing. I'm feeling much better after your words. And of course, you pulled me away like how MC did. =) hugz

Parts and parcels of life

The weather has been pretty chilling these few days. The brief rain pours especially in the mornings made me snuggle back under the comforter when the alarm rang. I had reluctantly succumbed to my duties and responsibilities for the day such that I need to be a good student. There were times like this I wished I had the freedom to play truancy. If only I was given the allowance to sleep through the day, it would be the best reward. *sighs* I'm getting old. Hence all these non sensible whinings and rantings. Or too much of psychiatry over the past 2 weeks ain't helping me to get better.

It's been a while since I last blogged on feelings, as in personal feelings and conflicts. But well, it's not to wise to share about such stuff publicly where reputation is to be concerned. Anyway, life has been good. Meeting and catching up with old friends somehow made my journey interesting again. On the other hand, I'm losing track with some close buddies from the batch especially Soo, Sing Cher and Phang. All of us have our own lives going on in separate ways since we returned to Malaysia. My attention has channeled more towards those groups of people since my childhood days or matriculation or my group mates of the same posting or the seniors.

p/s: Soo, SC, Phang. If you guys are reading this, we'll catch up more k? =)

Ok, I think I'm sounding really emo. Crap. It's time to get back on track!

Lomography

The best of lomography. <3 It's an art to appreciate. A photo of admiration. Nothing beats the beauty of it. Someday, I'll get me one.

With special credits and million thanks to M.C. Kua.

Models: Z.W.Ter, M.C.Kua, Y.J.Lee, Y.L.Leow

Venues: Jonker St Melaka, Pavilion, Jogoya Starhill, Batu Pahat

Verdict: I need a LOMO too!!!! :p

The Kampung Day

It was a fun day to have experienced the life of a retiree teacher who had decided to spend the next half of his life at a fishing village, far-out yet serene. The family had decided to pay this noble man of God a visit last weekend. Right, he's actually my uncle of the extended family, one of the closest relative I've always respected. A.k.a. Uncle Aik Leong.

Anyway, prior to his retirement, Uncle A.L. had actually built a house at the suburb of Batu Pahat. So yeah, he lives there soon after his retirement with his family of 4. Just like the younger days, dear uncle had never failed to pamper this glutton mouth of mine. Aww.. the thought of his excellent cooking just make me drool and go hungry immediately. This time, he's got a new dish to introduce. Fried shrimps!! Uncle AL was giving a mini lesson to mom and grandaunt so that they can further feed me at home. :p haha
Uncle's got a huge backyard for his house and to make the yard purposeful, he'd chipped in some money for a fishing pond equipped with sophisticated drainage system which I couldn't seem to comprehend how it works. The small brother had out of curiosity and much interest, managed to catch a big fish! (exaggerated) He tried really hard for almost half an hour before the fish finally got baited.

Next we were brought to a nearby river. And wonder what was there? Aha! Prawnsss!!! Alright, just an experience more like it, to learn how people actually fish for prawns. Gasps. Seriously, it was my first time to see so many tiny prawns winding their ways to escape from the net. Oopz. And a rare experience to hold the baby prawns between my fingers, allowing them to squirm and tickle.Summarizing the day, it was simply too awesome. =)

Love matters

Of late, my life has been a slightly mounted with emotions. This is a post, a post I wished it will be heard by you. Some words I had long wanted to tell you. Yet to keep it private, I delayed till now. For last night, my heart was torn the second time. So, here it goes.

Dear you,

It's always been a question in my head, what sort of relationship are we heading to? Sometimes, things get complicated between us. To make things mutual, we became bro and sis. Despite the bro-sis-relationship, we realized how we often fall into improper arguments. The affection was there. There's no way we could escape jealousy. As hard as I try to work my worrisome little mind around it, I wonder why do we put up with everything. The constant compromise and allowance from my part while the care and attention from yours. And all that waiting and wanting. It was tiring, I know. We think differently. We have different views about stuff.

Nearly 3 months of a different life from you since my fallback. Which left me all but a tad miffed because it made me resent not being able to see you as often as I'd like to. As we walked along, sometimes I found the dissimilarities between us. You noticed it as well. But we never voiced. Of both the mental and emotional stress I, albeit voluntarily, allow myself to be subjected to. And it was also at times like these that I’m reminded of how you constantly gave in to my whimsical demands, without complaint. The many wonderful ways in which you showed me how much you care.

Now that we really have to put a stop to it. I did not intend for all that I told you to happen. I didn't mean to lie nor cheat. I did not feel any better than you. For you know I like you more than you had imagined. All that patience and tolerance, understanding and acceptance. They seem so far away now. I hope you live a better life after me. And am always around if you need me. I'm just not the perfect girl for you. Take care!

Love,
-me-

The Weight Issue

Of the recent comments I've gotten. The current weight issue. I've been hearing the same thing over and over again from everyone I meet. Now I get really sick of answering this question. 'Why are you sooo skinny??!' Frankly, I do not know the answer and to clarify the doubts, I'm NOT at all on a diet plan. Everyone who has been dining with me knows the amount I consume. So, yeah I better not say anything.

"... slim-turning to Standard 3-type of wendy-thinness figure..." as quoted by Bern on her recent blog entry.
"...when in primary skool tat time..i rmb her..coz she was reli reli skinny and had a big head.." as quoted by Bern again many years back on Friendster.

Bern oh Bern... do I really have that big head and small body. Made me sound like that big-head-boy fanning the lion at the Lion dance show. Shucx

My BMI actually falls within the normal range. So I guess I should be defending myself now. Not any chance of reverting back to my Standard 3 figure cuz my body is in the right proportion to my head.