Thankful

The final four months of housemanship before getting my official license to practice. It's gonna be a good four-month posting cuz I'm in the department of anaesthesia! Very little workload and basically a stress free department. I've always thought about doing this speciality since I was a medical student. It is still bothering me now, what do I want for my future. No joke, I'm afraid I'll regret my own decision in the near future when I'm really into it. Sigh and this is why I have never ending worries. They come one after another. I have no clue if I should be at where the bf is, or be ambitious to stay back in Batu Pahat. But one thing I'm certain of, I dislike long distance relationship. Never good at maintaining and I feel insecure every now and then. Sometimes I feel so disheartened when the bf is not around and worsen when it leads to unintentional emotional strains between us. I know he's trying very hard to please me all the time. The patience he has towards me makes me feel sorry for being petty and demanding. )): But well, thank God for sending him into my life. It's been a great 18 months after all.

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Wonder if it's even worth doing so much at times. The insecurity is making me sick. Really sick.

Zenxin Organic Farm

6th April 2013

Some quality time spent with Gary's family over the short weekend break. We decided to go to the farm for some light activities like cycling and feeding the animals. Peddling the bike was tiring, yet we had so much fun posing for pictures.

Gary, Uncle Douglas, Jie Ching, Aunt Yvonne, Jayden, Valerie and Chris

The kids are sooo cuteeee!!

Jie Ching aka Ching Ching

The field. 

I suppose this is the nicest view in the farm

With the kids

Aunt Yvonne kept asking us to do this. Turned out to be a pretty good shot.

Love this shot extremely!

Ho Chi Minh

Before I forget all the minute details or even completely about the events that took place last year, I should get them posted here to keep my memory in check. There was Ho Chi Minh in early November (2nd - 6th) last year with Gary. That was during my end of posting leave in O&G. Talk about the trip, it was a pretty last minute decision, like a month before? Or even lesser.

We put up at the Koniko Backpackers Hostel. Saigon was where we experienced their (the Vietnamese) poverty and hardships rather than it being a relaxing or grandeur holiday. Also a place we had to bargain for at least 80% off the price offered for things they sell. That was pretty fun actually. For example, buying a pair of shorts for Rm20 instead Rm100. We did that for almost everything we bought, even for the a coconut. Overall, the thing I enjoyed most is probably the food and the priceless homestay experience at Mekong. But should I have more money for traveling purposes, I'll probably not return there. Once is enough I guess though I certainly crave for Vietnamese food every now and then, especially their beef noodles and barbeque pork! I don't have many pictures with me cuz most of them were taken with Gary's phone and I have yet to transfer them. So yeah, just these few.

Gary's fav Bahn Mi (French bread). The first thing we tried before heading to a proper dinner.

My fav Pho Bo (Beef noodle). Our second round of dinner on our way back.

Too lazy to walk to Ben Thanh market the following morning, we took the bike instead!

And this is Ben Thanh Market. The only thing we got from this place was the lotus seed. 

Out in the heat! 

The monument just across Ben Thanh

Notre Dame Cathedral

Hello bikz!

My fav shot! :D

At Reunification Palace

To make the tour complete, we visited one of the historical sites. As usual, the moment I entered, I couldn't wait to be out. That happens every. single. time I'm in a musueam, If you're in here, better get a guide to explain the sections inside. Or you'll comprehend nothing like us.

Dinner time! Obliged to try at the French restaurant just along the street where we lived cuz the waiter kept waiving at us, asking us to get in. 

And we call this 'chap fan' in our country. :D

Hello ahjumma! Bought one of these 'non la' (leaf heat) that served me well in Mekong.

At a rest stop on our way to Mekong.

One of the stops during our Mekong Delta tour for local fruits. Urh, we get these in Malaysia too.

Row row row your boat, gently down the stream. Merrily merrily merrily merrily, life is but a dream

Queen bee honey tasting. We're the only Malaysians in the group. 

Homestay! With these awesome people from German!

Our host making us dinner

After breakfast. I can't remember their names.

Hello from us!

At a fruit plantation with my hat. 

Last meal in Saigon city before our departure

Ambition?

I have an extended holiday, another week of medical leave, which makes it a total 3 weeks break! Wow! I hadn't been working for 3 long weeks! I wake up each day feeling different and there were moments I got so bored, I wished to go back to work. Pronto! Perhaps a good reason for me to keep holding on to my job. No pun intended. I've been living a rather purposeless life since a year ago. I can't decide for myself what I really want. While I'm often being asked about my preference, I woukd usually reply with that perfunctory statement - "I want to be a chronic MO." It wasn't long before this, I start getting bothered about what I'll like to become. It's like a major issue for me, good enough to give me sleepless nights just thinking about what's best. I still do not have an exact answer, but well, let nature takes its course! The fact is, no one can see beyond the horizon of their own lives isn't it?

Tioman Island

One of the best destinations for a short escapade will definitely be an island. I'm missing those evenings where I could just fall asleep on the beach, and that was like what, a week ago? I thought it was just yesterday. Good times never last long. But what's good to hear is, they will always come again. (: So, hang in there Wendy! Be happy in your next posting! *nods, I can do it*

Good and bad

So, I had an awesome long break this time from the summation of end of posting leave plus MC! Talk about good things. Surgical posting had been a good one. 4 months leaped away without much fear. Bosses and colleagues there are great to work with. In between, there were breaks for Christmas, CNY and also Valentine's. Oh well, it wasn't as though I had any foo-foo celebration. Precious moments spent with my loved ones are always the best - priceless and what money cannot buy. Been trying hard to juggle between work, family and a long distance relationship. So far so good, no doubt LDR can be tough at times. In an optimistic perspective, it strengthens the relationship, whereby we start making future plans together. Everything is going at its right pace, and that's what I'm always thankful about. Our family met. Miraculuously both our parents get along very well - nothing for me to worry about.

Anyway, talk about the bad. I'm down with chicken pox at the moment. So bad that I think my face is going to be disfigured! T.T Had to extend my leave, which means I have to extend my new posting as well. Can't be any more sadder than this, and every time I look into the mirror, it shudders that frightening look, like 'OMG!! How is this going to get healed without scarring??' Big sigh. But still, am grateful to everyone who's been very concerned about me. Hoping for a speedy recovery so that I can start work as soon as possible. (;