Get up and try

Even if it makes you wanna cry... gotta get up and try and try and try and try...

Year One

It was a silent prayer that got answered.

A year has gone. A relationship that I'd never imagined would end up like this. God must have been really awesome. From a point where I have no idea where this will go and and decided to take a leap of faith, well, I'm the luckiest woman now. So much have happened within this one year. All the ups and downs that were never documented became a part of the lifelong learning lesson that will always remain in my frontal lobe. We're at two different towns now and certainly, distance and absence are the toughest ordeals to overcome. It's only been four days we were apart, yet it feels like forever. It's often at times like this that I keep reminding myself - 'impossible' is not a word but an excuse for not trying.

Thank God for you. Happy Year-One baby! (:

(((:

Well, well, well... another year is about to come to an end. What will I say about my year? God has been good to me indeed, in almost everything I'd say. Of course, it isn't as perfect as everyone has thought as there were still periods where I call it the 'downs'. I can barely retain most of my memories now and when I tried recalling via my blog posts, I realized how little have I talked about my life this year.

Somewhere last year, I was still pretty much in doubt about my survival skills when it comes to work. I hated the fact that I'm a doctor and the skepticism in me brought me no where but to continue from where I already am. There were times when I get so frustrated about patients and their family members who do not at all appreciate our concerns or they're just too demanding. So commonly seen among my own race and I'll try by all means to avoid such people. Just recently I came across the same situation, and this time, the subject was my own relative. I got really pissed off at the beginning though I wasn't involved directly. But well, come to think about it, it isn't really worth my effort to be angry at people who doesn't deserve it. 

Anyway, nuff said about work! ((:

Been offered a glimmer of hope when I was almost lost in my routine practice. I have someone awesome in my life now and being pampered by my most awesome parents at home is good. Oopz, guess I have a little though block at the moment plus I do not have a specific topic which I wanna talk about. But am feeling all good becoming right now, with some Christmas carols playing from the woofer and the bf falling asleep on the other couch. Gonna smack him awake. Teeheeee. 

Lonely Christmas

Looking forward to my favorite season of the year, Christmas, but ))): it's gonna be a lonely one..

Be a grown up

Knowing well the degree of obstacles someone had gone through and will be going through for your sake, sometimes I feel ashamed to even ask for more. But why am I always so demanding? ))): 

Finishing O&G

Finally, it's coming to an end. I'm almost done with my third posting! Wheeee~ Now, no more echoes of the fetal heart beat(CTG) to vibrate my eardrums. No more meconium stained liquor to stain my clothes. No more whiff of fishy odor during vaginal examination to make me feel nauseated. I'm just so glad I survived these 4 months! ((: And off to Saigon in less than 48 hours with the bf! ((:

Well, not exactly that happy cuz finishing this posting meaning it's a start of a LDR and I'm not quite a person who loves being away from the people I love. What more when the bf and I have never been apart for more than 3 days since we started. It's gonna be a whole new experience to adapt with, like omigosh, will I miss him too much?? No doubt. Will I be incapacitated from the emptiness?? Certainly, yes. Will the distance crumble our relationship? Well, I hope not. Arghh.. there's just so much to be fearful about. T_T

Sigh, double sigh, triple sigh. Whatever it is, come what may.

Call it PMS

Am missing those days where I got to pen down my emotions and feeling alright after that. This habit had been long lost and every now and then when I feel the need to release them here, I'm often at a loss for words.

Tonight, I get that blues again, just because I'm worried. When you are aware that someone who matters isn't feeling good, you eventually get that hit and feel the same too. Or probably it's just those hormones playing up on me again. Arghh.. I seriously have no idea man!!!