Lonely Christmas

Looking forward to my favorite season of the year, Christmas, but ))): it's gonna be a lonely one..

Be a grown up

Knowing well the degree of obstacles someone had gone through and will be going through for your sake, sometimes I feel ashamed to even ask for more. But why am I always so demanding? ))): 

Finishing O&G

Finally, it's coming to an end. I'm almost done with my third posting! Wheeee~ Now, no more echoes of the fetal heart beat(CTG) to vibrate my eardrums. No more meconium stained liquor to stain my clothes. No more whiff of fishy odor during vaginal examination to make me feel nauseated. I'm just so glad I survived these 4 months! ((: And off to Saigon in less than 48 hours with the bf! ((:

Well, not exactly that happy cuz finishing this posting meaning it's a start of a LDR and I'm not quite a person who loves being away from the people I love. What more when the bf and I have never been apart for more than 3 days since we started. It's gonna be a whole new experience to adapt with, like omigosh, will I miss him too much?? No doubt. Will I be incapacitated from the emptiness?? Certainly, yes. Will the distance crumble our relationship? Well, I hope not. Arghh.. there's just so much to be fearful about. T_T

Sigh, double sigh, triple sigh. Whatever it is, come what may.

Call it PMS

Am missing those days where I got to pen down my emotions and feeling alright after that. This habit had been long lost and every now and then when I feel the need to release them here, I'm often at a loss for words.

Tonight, I get that blues again, just because I'm worried. When you are aware that someone who matters isn't feeling good, you eventually get that hit and feel the same too. Or probably it's just those hormones playing up on me again. Arghh.. I seriously have no idea man!!!

Shelter

Shelter under the colorful splashes of rain

And all I can think about is how sweet that person I love would do this art with me. (:

Graduation

Not exactly something to be proud of, but yeah, I made it through! (:

Dr. Wendy Ter Zu Wei

M.B.B.S. (MMMC)

2006-2011

Hanging by the moment

Honestly, I've never been through a posting where I can't wait to leave and move on to the next. It is this bad, I tell you. During those rough few week of tagging, I would cry my heart out once behind my room's door. When the bf was around, I would be hiding under the blanket or in the toilet just to have a release. It was truly a pathetic sight to be alternating between self-pity, anger and hopelessness. So much of negative feelings in me that I do not even know how to express it at times. It is as though none of the people around me understands what and why I am actually feeling so stressed out. Sometimes I don't even bother explaining. 'What doesn't kill you makes you stronger.' - one of the songs sung by Kelly Clarkson. And also one of the phrases my bf keeps telling me every time I come back home from work with bouts of tears and rants. I had this habit that whenever I was down, I would ask those who'd been through the same situation as me, 'How do you do it?' A part of my own curiosity to know how people survived the situation. And often at times, there wasn't one fixed answer or solution. I stopped asking that now. When you're at the edge and wonder how you should go through, you simply do as you must and go through it because you have to. It's such a burden to carry these feeling for another three long months, but hopefully, I'll turn out just fine.